Os is over.wat to do next?

i'm really tired.mentally and physically.

went shopping yesterday with si dzing and si qi.all i bought was lip gloss..make upstuff.i'm not kidding.i don't even know why i'm doing this.well.I'M GOING NUTS.i feel so dam lost.i mean it.well,my legs are hurting up till now.si qi found a dress she likes so did si dzing.BUT NOT ME!gosh.i think i really hate shopping now.i hate going out.but i hate the fact that i've nothing to do.i did go to look for job.


I FEEL TERRIBLE NOW FOR NO REASON.


and i feel so horrible when i went for drum lesson on wed.i skipped 2 lessons just for Os.and well,when i went back i feel so horrible.as though wat i play seems wrong.probably because i'm playing a different drum set,different area.i hate the "pros" looking at me when i play.i hate the stress i hate it when they look at me like i'm an alien playing crap music.it sucks.well,i get a break from it.but still means i'm in deep shit when i get back.


anyway i've no mood for prom night at all.dun ask me why.i can't even find any answers to my crazy moodswings.i totally hate this.i really rather head back to study.freedom doesn't seem as great as i thought.GOSH!











i hate the noise.can the contractors end the dam construction of the living room soon?they took so many months to complete.argh!i hope my results aren't affected.I'M SO TIRED.I've so much time but i really dunno how to spend it.HAI....hate it.after all,i think i love life being dam packed,full,chaotic.now its lazy,boring and i've no idea how to end this pain.




forget it.will blog when i feel that i've the mood to use the computer.till then.