haiz....ytd was juz a terrbile dae 4 me...lemme tok more abt...

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after watchin hana kimi,i started searchin 4 de info 4 my science hw on a career in science....n i was oso findin stuff 4 de chinese project....wait,i tot all de internet searchin belongs 2 mic,clau n cherry??y am i doin all these?havin 2 rush all de writin is bad enuf....y am i still doin this??come on,de 3 of u...de deadline is comin,n none of u gave me a single piece of news....wth?pls lorz...me n dzing decided 2 do all de writins cos we wanna gt a beta score....we r lyk helpin u guys 2 gt beta marks too....n wat did u gals do??nth...haiz...pls!gt all de crap 2 me n dzing...i dun have so much time 2 waste on de stupid chinese project...i still gt whole lot of rubbish 2 do...holis have nv been a holi ever since i come 2 this sch...haiz...
back 2 science thingy...wa,i search so long liao...still can't find de stupid requirements to enter the field of study sia...gettin kinda fed up...well...found alot of info 4 chinese le....after all this,i went 2 suntec 4 dinner....haiz...this is de worst dae...nt abt de dinner...lemme tok abt it....
my father n bro wanna go 2 de com exbit..while i follow my mom 2 shop around,my mom wanted 2 go 2 carefour....well when we were walkin 2wards carefour,we saw ppl crowdin around...near this fashion....den i went alittle 4 ward 2 c wat happen...n 2 my surprised,i saw a guy lying on de floor,blood was comin out frm he's mouth,cos i tink he was bitin he's tongue..he was havin fits....no1 can help,other den helpin 2 call de ambulance...after tat my mom asked me 2 walk off...
i suddenly feel tat y muz this kind of things happen??a healthy person can suddenly gt fits...y ppl wasn't teach 2 prevent things lyk this,or probably teach on wat we can do 2 save tat person when things lyk this suddenly happen...y?y sch doesn't teach....i suddenly tink tat dere's a nid 4 every1 2 learn this...cos we can't c de future...we'll nv noe hu will gt fits...wat's de point of havin so much education when u can't even help a person hu suddenly had fits?y education doesn't include all this??y??i seriously tink tat we r so useless when this kind of things happen...sch shld teach things lyk this,or juz tell us smth basic...@ least when this kind of things happen,we can help....i seriously felt damm bad cos i can't help de person @ all...i seriously dunno wat happen after tat....
after tat continued wif de shoppin wif my mom,but i did have de mood 2 shop @ all...i really wished tat i noe smth tat can save de person...anyway tinkin abt fits,it made me tot of wat happen 2 my bro when i was still in pri sch....pri 3 or 4 i guess...my bro had fits cos he had damm high fever...@ tat my mom didn't noe wat 2 do...so she let my bro 2 bite her finger...she seriously bleed damm lot...i was so frightend,but i tried 2 laugh n smile...but seriously ,tat time i didn't noe wat had happen...i only c my parents started cryin...i can only sit @ de side n c my father callin 4 de ambulance alot of time,cos it was damm slow...den my aunt n grandmother came...only my aunt knew wat 2 do...she place a metal spoon in2 my bro's mouth 2 let him bit,den she asked my mom 2 slowly take her finger out....haiz...after tat my bro was send 2 de hospital,my parents followed...
tinkin abt it really makes me feel lyk cryin...i dunno la...i juz feel so useless some how...i really wonder wat wld have happen if my aunt dunno wat 2 do...den my mom's finger will b bite off or wat??life is lyk tat i seriously can't stop tinkin abt it....cos de images of wat happen in suntec n de past keep flashin in my mind...till now i'm still tinkin abt it...i tink i can't gt over wat had happen last time...haiz....it will b 4eva in my mind...haiz...
after goin hm,i tried 2 do hw 2 make me stop tinkin abt it...but i can't...haiz...i started listenin 2 music n doin all my hw...but i juz can't stop tinkin abt it...i rushed all my hw until nearin 1 am....but i still keep tinkin abt it even when i wanna slp...haiz....

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i woke up 8 am i guess...only around 8 hrs of slp...haiz...y can't i wake up l8r?nv...i continued wif my research 4 my science hw...haiz...still tinkin abt wat happen....haiz...can't stop tinkin abt it....i guess my bro didn't noe he had fits last time...i tink he only rmb tat he had damm high fever n was send 2 de hopital..i dun tink he rmb wat happen 2 him n my mom....haiz...wateva...dun wanna tink...or else i'll start cryin....
well,l8r gonna go out 2 celebrate eunice b-dae...actually is 15 de la...but we dun have time,only 2dae gt time...haiz....l8r goin out 4 movie...still gt damm lot of hw 2 do....gonna rush....nxt 3daes gt camp...so i won't b bloggin....haiz...i'll blog after de camp...nid 2 continue on searchin 4 de info....haiz...